Sunday, February 24, 2013

Conners

3 comments:

hotfruitfly said...

hi im colleen and im a victim of animal control jim gillis and mike newall not allowing me my rights which ironically as i post this blog is the beginning of our canada day weekend which one yhing to be proud of being canadian is our charter of rights ...my deisel was apparently euthanized the thursday beginning the easter weekend ....with the police ...myself and my daughter we as in my daughter and i were directed to go to the courthouse in the morning which again would have been the thurs ...so were talking the wednesday at 4:oo pm we were directed to go and submit our paperwork and as the police who were there to mantain and keep the peace were satisfyied with my cooperation to go about things in a mature respectable fashion and go about things in the proper protocols which knowing thats the way and clearly aware that a judge would have the honor to sort out the issues at hand and maturly our ways are the directected until we call animal control in the morning and they tell us they euthanized my boy ....i have been dealing with this alone ...allowing people to give the same old advise to see a lawyer...and offer the condolances that i do asppreciate but im afraid that im not going to a lawyer for what....i dont believe they have killed my boy ...instintcs are saying different....if thats the case i learn well then i can not help my reacctions to pain and confusion they have have caused me ...as a canadian i see that i also will celebrate my freedom to do to them as i wish....no reprecaussins have fallen on the laps of mr gillis and mike newall...as of yet.....

hotfruitfly said...

Well I just maybe able to start some action considering I have been nothing but a blob of pain and everytime I think I can go out there and make some noise I find myself only listening to my own echo of tears that I can't even get past the depression this has caused me ..I am a victim of post traumatic stress I have been thru very many traumatic events ebough that just a few of them would produce traumatic stress to the strongest..but even with being very well told to adjust to the window I look out cause I would likely never be able to adapt to a working community where I would have to be in contact with any other human cause my fear of them is beyond comprehensible and this was a life I was prepared to live as long as I could be safe ...well time rolls on and I raise my beautiful six children and then some and while I'm trying to be a good example and lead my children towards a society in afraid of ....I will continue shortly but give this much so far ....

hotfruitfly said...

And as I continue with what appears pathetic to some is what was a and is a very real life to me ...as I said I raised my beautiful children and like all of us we hope that our children have better and do better and so forth..it started with mt oldest daughter one day asking me if I could" hook her up with one of those" and one of those meaning a disability check wow a minimum income compared to what she has potential for being only 12 and here I am her life coach and I can't even be brave like a regular person and go to the store by myself which brings me to another scenario with the exact same daughter who was 15 now and my middle daughter who was 14 at the time and this one got me good ..I was driving and my two daughters were in the back seat having a mature and sisterly conversation which for these two girls was like a miracle cause they fought most as siblings and it was just so nice to watch from my rearview mirror how the older one was there for the needs of my younger one and again a life changing moment arrives ..we come to the grocery store and I put the car in park and as I watched the girls at that moment they both looking at each other stopping their convo and with their hands on the seatbelt to take it off they both at the same moment said ill go you ....it hurt me I was very sad that I was the cause of interuppting this very needed moment my daughters needed for each other ..but there it is mummy can't go in the store by herself and my children were so trained to it that it was natural that since I'm getting out to go in I need someone to hold my hand ...I decided that moment on that I'm gonna do what it takes to be a big girl now and go to the stores myself one day...well my children all helped me get thru a scary scary thing for me which was when I started to go in the big stores myself they would wait outside in the car and if after one hour I wasn't out the protoc was to come in and get me cause I was frozen in an isle and wouldn't look left nor right just straight ahead reading ingredients to every single thing in an isle if need be but as long as I didn't have to make contact with a human and if I were to look beside me either way that was a possibility so in fear I wouldn't and believe me I wouldn't...and I'm hoping this story isn't dragging I just need to get to the imporatance of what my boy deisel is to me or what perhaps ..and what animal control has done to me ...