tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10075613.post112327284328096645..comments2023-11-03T06:38:08.915-04:00Comments on DEFEND-A-BULL Blog: Searching Answers & a NightmaresConnershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14768489273730846275noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10075613.post-1123353347979675832005-08-06T14:35:00.000-04:002005-08-06T14:35:00.000-04:00You're right of course and as much as I'm TRYING t...You're right of course and as much as I'm TRYING to stand back, let God, I'm quickly panicing and taking it away from him all over again. So again I hand it to Him...<BR/>I feel like I'm in the place when all the abuse was happening. A room with no windows or doors. So I panic rather than sit quietly and wait.<BR/>It's not just the fight with the BSL, it's a combination of battles I'm fighting. No doctor. Lack of medications. Health and apartment issues. Not knowing ou rights. And my brain is overloaded and my body in bad pain. <BR/>It's so bad in the city I live in that I went to the hospital and they turned me away saying they can't help me. All sorts of things. So the combo is dragging me down and I know I need help, but I don't know where to get it and I've phoned and asked so much that I'm worn out of searching.<BR/>When flares hit, I have to wait them out, but never know how long they will be. It could be a couple weeks or a year. To me, it could feel like almost a week, to find out it had to be much longer by the evidence it does to my body. Kind of like Rip Van Winkle. I'm sure glad I have Shasta, as she sticks so close to me during these times.<BR/>Can your dog be your soul mate? Because I believe Shasta and I were meant for each other in a special way. She's given me back life after years of nothingness.<BR/>I know you don't understand what I'm talking about. There are only a few who really do. Well...actually more since I put up my web page about me. But that only tells a very small part and with all these circumstances, I've paniced myself and put myself back in that windowless, doorless room. I feel like 1 mile away from the Highbury Hilton. You wouldn't understand that unless you lived in London. LOLConnershttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14768489273730846275noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10075613.post-1123311867949800892005-08-06T03:04:00.001-04:002005-08-06T03:04:00.001-04:00a 'cause' can never be greater than your 'creator'...a 'cause' can never be greater than your 'creator'... step back and put it into perspective. <BR/><BR/>Maybe then, you will get the answer that you are so desperately seeking... be warned though, it may not be the one you are looking for... But it will be right and it will be the Truth spoken in love w/ mercy... <BR/><BR/>@ least that is how the Lord has always dealth with me once i stepped back and allowed Him to speak.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10075613.post-1123311866681311252005-08-06T03:04:00.000-04:002005-08-06T03:04:00.000-04:00a 'cause' can never be greater than your 'creator'...a 'cause' can never be greater than your 'creator'... step back and put it into perspective. <BR/><BR/>Maybe then, you will get the answer that you are so desperately seeking... be warned though, it may not be the one you are looking for... But it will be right and it will be the Truth spoken in love w/ mercy... <BR/><BR/>@ least that is how the Lord has always dealth with me once i stepped back and allowed Him to speak.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com